2am and yep, I’m up. Not unusual for me. I never sleep more than 2-3 hours straight. Woke up because drenched in sweat. Clothes, sheets, pillow: damn hormones!
The sound of the rain outside soothing. Steady rythem. Rain from a tropical storm. Drenching rain. Just like me. Stormy, raining. Moods ebb and flow. High and low. Within same day; sometimes within the hour. Really too much for anyone to handle on a daily basis. Too much emotion even though to some it seems like I have none.
Keeping tally of all the positives vs negatives. Positives far outweigh negatives. Children great: healthy, happy, in love, going great academically. I’m healthy. Found my calling and getting better at it everyday. Never imagined this time last year I’d be verified in 3 formats almost 4 and instructing/ coaching as much as I am. Picking up a HIIT cycle class next week and a bootcamp class once school out for summer.
Training going great. Push pressed 100lbs to day. 6 rounds of Super sets of 3 push presses and 6 body weight reverse rows. 6 rounds 15-14 lbs ball slams and 10 box jumps. 3 rounds of 30 sec ball slams, push-ups and half court walking lunges with 45lbs plate over head. Just as grueling on Thursday. Doubled up this week because I missed last week because of SPRINT training. Shoulders rocking๐ช
And then there is this
OMG๐ถ๐ฑโค๏ธ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐Just no words. Something less than a pound can bring such joy and love. Amazing to see how strong and brave she is growing everyday. I can watch her all day! She cracks me up with her antics and exhausts the dogs. Both Max and Daisy awesome. They are being loving and relatively gentle with her as she bites their legs and try’s to scale up them. A true baby, Kona eats, sleeps, poops, and plays. When she sleeps she likes to nuzzle and snuggle under my neck and purrs๐๐
Positives far out weigh negatives..They are the same ones so not mentioning them. Yet a storm still rages on inside me. Shifting winds and heavy rain. A hurricane too much for most to handle.